[APOCALYPSE]

My parents divorced last month. It was shocking news and I could not bear up due to a sense of betrayal toward my mom. It felt like my 18years became a lie, and happy memories with my familiy became fake. I could not believe what my parents said. They said " I still love you, you are my lovely daughter." Indeed, the truth which my brother told me was "I want to kill her and suicide together." I could do nothing except for crying. My parents were my everything, but they are saying they want to kill me. I didn't do anything wrong. I was merely a target of venting anger for them. It felt like my heart is burning. I could not see my mom anymore. She was not my mom anymore. Whatever she have done, I wanted to see her. I miss my mom, and I miss our family laughing all together. I miss my parent's smile. I miss our happy moment. I searched some photos which my family have taken. Since my family went on a trip a lot, there are numerous family photos. Mom and dad inside the photo are smiling. However, I can not see their smile anymore. A harmonious and pleasant time do not exists anymore. Everything became ashes.

My family burned each other and there is only the apocalypse of everyone. As much I love and depend on my family, I face destruction as it is. The only painkiller is reminiscing memories even I know that the reality which I need to face after bringing back those memories would give more pain to me. I know I am addicted to it, and I know I can't stop. Nevertheless, eventually I am watching everyone's happy face inside the photo.